Archive | June 2017

Creations of Life

Her  glass bangles clinked as she furiously pulled the needle through the intricate maze of thread-work spread out in her lap. Each tug on the thread wove out the pattern that she knew in her head without even looking at the cloth . It was supposed to be done by tomorrow when the lady from the NGO would come and inspect her work- all to be packed and taken away and finally become a kurta to be worn by someone far away. Outside the wind had given way to rain ,the dark clouds rolled and as the sounds of thunder in the distance made their way into the room her hands moved faster, the clinking of her bangles getting louder and angrier as if they could sense her own impatience at the clouds. The impending storm meant it would be darker soon- taking away nearly an hour from her work. A final knot and she held out the thread between her fingers her biting into it to snap it away from the cloth. Holding up the needle to the fading evening light from the window she squinted trying to push the red thread through the eye. Just a final row more and the design would be done. This time maybe a new pair  of shoes for her little boy. She called out to him as the needle pierced the cloth once more, creating another pattern.

He peered up into the sky under the neem trees swathed in the evening breeze. Grey clouds rolled across the skies glaring and thundering at the world below. In the distance the boys from the other school raced across the ground chasing the yellow and grey football ,kicking in fury their tee-shirts soaked with sweat and clinging to their chests ,screaming and calling out names as the ball streaked across the ground. He watched quietly occasionally glancing at the window of the room they lived in for he knew his mother would call soon. In a few minutes little droplets of rain slowly made their way into the dry earth disappearing near his bare feet. He looked up into the skies hopefully as the drops grew larger a couple falling sharply onto his cheeks. An enormous roll of thunder heralded the downpour he had been waiting for and the screams of the boys got drowned out as the rain beat down onto everything in sight. A tiny rivulet of water poured from a branch of the neem collecting into a puddle beneath the tree. He inhaled deeply the smell of the wet leaves and the wet earth and pulled out an old sheet of newspaper from his frayed shirt pocket. In the distance he could hear his mother calling her voice nearly drowned over the rain and thunder. Slowly he squatted spreading out the sheet and folding it into half and then again- his fingers quick and sure. Raindrops soaked his head and feet as he bent over the piece of paper he was folding taking care that it remained dry. His tiny eight year old fingers had been waiting all year for this. As the puddle near his feet grew larger he held his tiny paper boat between his fingers holding it from the tip as if it were made of glass. Once more he looked up and as if they knew what he wanted the clouds magically halted, the drops were now not so sharp and the rain had now reduced back to a drizzle . He placed his newly created boat into the puddle and watched as it bobbed slowly. His mother called again and this time he answered his eyes fixed on his boat as it rocked in the tiny puddle. In the distance the street-lights came on casting a golden glow on the slowly pattering rain drops. He looked up -the old man across the street was at his window looking at him. He waved and smiled as the boat he had created quivered in the breeze

The old man could barely hear. Often the postman would bang at his door and leave because he would not hear. He liked watching the boys as they played in the distance. They reminded him of his grandson. Today he stood by the window as the raindrops streaked down the panes. He watched the little boy under the tree folding his little piece of paper and setting it to sail in the puddle. The rains reminded him of his wife-she loved the rain. She would rush towards the stove and make them both a cup of tea. Warm, milky, sweet with the sharp taste of ginger in it. They would both sit and drink it while watching the raindrops. His wrinkled hands quivered as he silently wiped a tear at the edge of his eye . He missed her even more today,his throat ached and he yearned for her special tea. He closed his eyes as he leaned back into the chair trying to recall how she made it.Then slowly he got up holding onto the stick by his chair his feet unsteady- with pain and age. He shuffled up to the kitchen and poured out a cup of water into the pan. With slow and measured steps he reached out for the dry and old little bit of ginger that was lying in the  kitchen basket. As the water bubbled on the stove he stirred in the ginger bits trying to recall the way his wife would. “You don’t be around here- go sit outside”, she would say if he ever tried to help in the kitchen. The water in the pan bubbled and sizzled and he slowly measured out the tea leaves into it. Drops of milk spilt on to the kitchen counter as his hands shook while pouring it into the pan. He caught the pan with an old and dirty rag pouring the brown warm liquid into the chipped cup spilling a little outside. Slowly he made his way back to his chair, cup in one hand and his stick in the other. Then he sank back into his chair inhaling the tea and rain .  Slowly he sipped .Her tea-and he had tried to recreate that feeling today.

The rain had stopped now. The wet paper boat floated in the puddle being tossed every now and then by the breeze.

For WordPress Daily Prompt: The Prompt for today is Create

Happiness

Growing up with Mother Goose and Old MacDonald ( I went to nursery school in an era when the Happy Meal serving MacD was yet to appear on the urban landscape) poetry recitation class was a series of rhymes being churned out one after another beginning with a tea pot that poured tea out and reaching a crescendo with the entire kindergarten group clapping their hands in unison to the beat of When you are Happy and You Know It.

This summer I walked into a book store  in Mussoorie to find a hardbound green pocket book by Ruskin Bond entitled Little Book of  Happiness. Placed on my bedside now the book runs like a thread of tiny quotes on happiness in Bond’s inimitable style.

“Happiness is as elusive as a butterfly, and you must never pursue it. If you stay very still, it may come and settle on your hand. But only briefly. Savour those moments, for they will not come in your way very often.”
Ruskin Bond

When I think of it, happiness is not that elusive once you start to savour the brief moments.

The bliss and warmth of sleeping in the mellow winter sun

the hint of cardamom and ginger as you wrap your fingers over your morning cup of tea

freshly washed sheets when you slip in between the covers

a walk in the mountains through the mist with the mountain breeze on your face and the whisper of pines in your ears

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a good book to curl up with on a rainy afternoon  

the Dachshunds flopping by my side after an exhausting evening of chasing each other and then nuzzling for comfort

a plate of exquisitely spiced fragrant home made biryani laced with saffron and the love that maa put into it

memories 

the first litchis of the season

long conversations with old friends the kind that stretch late into the night and you end up wondering where the time went

finding that perfect moment and capturing it in a photograph

an old song with a haunting melody

fresh blooms in the garden 

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Life for me has been about seizing happiness from between the moments of trial and tears by snatching these little joys – savouring them ,holding on to the after taste even when the moments have gone by.  As Pema Chodron said,” Rejoicing in ordinary things is not sentimental or trite. It actually takes guts. Each time we drop our complaints and allow everyday good fortune to inspire us, we enter the warrior’s world “

Of course there are the other moments as well…when I overcome the nagging fears of the unknown , the worries ,the gnawing knots in the stomach and go beyond them – the tiny successes that come when you jump off that cliff of constant fear and slowly inch towards the dream that you carved out for yourself. For it is only when you quit folding yourself into a pre-conceived shape – when you get out of the amniotic sac of comfort while knowing that perhaps sometimes things take a little while to fall into their own- it is when you celebrate the tiny highs that you can get past the inevitable lows.  Of course one can never have eternal happy- the proverbial roller coaster of life shows you the  dizzy euphoric highs and the crummy miserable lows. But eventually when the calendar flips, if you keep the zest for life,if you can grab joy in the small moments, maybe occasionally even clap your hands and stamp your feet as the rhyme went-  that is when you can find happiness.

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.’

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